The five of us.

Aloha.

It's the first week of semester 3. Pray hard that everything goes as I want. (: First good news, the college finally cancel the food package. I can now save more of my allowance and get a new smart phone. Yeehaa.

Thank god everything returns to how it was before. It feels really good that we can now have fun with each other and talk craps with each other. At least there is no gap between us, or maybe still a little.

One more, I will never ever going to give a shit about you anymore. What am I to you? Coming to me only when you are left aside or when your friends are not around? Only talk to me when you are lonely or left out? So, I am your back up plan? Plan B? Get a life man. I have never met someone like you before-selfish, silly and retarded. Shit you.

Aah, don't ruin my mood.

Love,
Nicole.

Have you ever thought of breaking down?

3 down, 2 more to go.

Currently having my final examinations now and yours truly is sick and well, perhaps getting better because I can even play Tetris. The day after tomorrow will be the start of our semester break - for two weeks. So, call me, date me. (:

I once said I don't believe in promises and forever, which I failed to think and act what I said. I committed, sacrificed and buckets of tears were wasted for love, for you. I believed you and you lied. I chose to believe again and you lied, again. This continued for the whole 670 days we were together. If the word 'sorry' really matter and mean to you, I wonder. It seems that what I received most were lies and disappointments. I'm so frustrated and pissed with all those promises you once said. 'Forever' and 'future' were what I see in us which now don't mean a thing to me anymore.

And no, you don't have to feel sorry.
You gave me experience. You taught me what a girlfriend should do and care. Most importantly, you make me realize how important family is. You make me love my mum more than anything else in this big damn world. I sincerely, thank you.

You were someone I once love the most.
Unfortunately, nothing lasts forever.

Love,
Nicole.

If and only if.

Where's the funny, caring and loving you ?

Nobody else.

Hey peeps,

I created a new blog. Not because I hate my current blog or I want another new blog. It's one of my assignments. Pretty interesting and fun project but I really suck in blogging especially with this new way and 'technique' to blog. I am not that smart geek who knows everything. Well, to be frank, I don't even know how to download songs from the net. You guys must be wondering where the hell I get all my songs, right? Aah, sister. Pendrive-copy-paste. 

I wonder if I have ruined my image. A few seconds ago. 

Whatever. Life moves on.

If time could ever turn back, I wish nothing of these will ever happen. Life now is so complicated with so many two-faced people. They were like so good to you and the very next minute, the don't even bother to say a word to you. We used to be so close. So close that I thought nothing could ever tear us apart. And hey, I am not saying my ex because he is no longer my ex anymore. If you get what I mean. 

Sometimes, love fools us. Agree not?

Signing off,

Nicole

Life.

Aloha.

So I abandoned my blog. Again.

Well,

I hate it when people acted as if everything seem to mean nothing to them anymore. In just a short time, everything changed drastically. There's no point giving empty promises when you don't even mean it. Save it. I pity your saliva.

Worse, college life.

I don't get it when people still act and behave as if they are still a primary school student. Please, we are 19.

Aah, life.

People change, things change, life change.

One more,

we officially broke up.

You'll miss me.

Signing off.

Love Story

Hey.

So, I've heard lots of love stories and I actually pitied some of them. You know, some couples are meant for each other but life is unfair, always unfair. They used to spend so much time together, they captured tons of beautiful, I mean it, really beautiful pictures and they were so sweet but why ?

Why do they have to end up like that? I can see they still love each other but why things always end up like this? Where's the '.. and they live happily ever after' story ?

Aah, fate, I guess.

Oh, one more.

Happy Birthday Mum !!

<3

Till then.

Romeo.

Aloha.

He went Taiwan last three days. The feeling of missing someone is unbearable and all I can do is to wait for time to pass.

So, I had my MUET speaking test and it was 'awesome'. I was so nervous that I can feel my legs shaking under the table. I can say that I was really 'lucky' as the chief came to see how we (my group) performed. Damn. Why can't she come later ? Thank god the question I got was easy.

I hate how we are treated here, as if we are still in primary school. The food was terrible. One word to describe, sucks.

Get a life, please.

I miss my baby boy.

Love,

Nicole.

Valentino.

I know I have been pretty lazy updating my blog. I said I will but yeah, I failed to do so. Lots of things happened in these few months but whatever, forget the past. Heh.

Valentine's Day was not bad after all. We had dinner at Tokio Cafe and food was scrumptious. Chronicle for movie and the best part was having him with me.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with his face in this picture. =)

Speaking test for MUET is around the corner and I bet you don't know how nervous I am. I only hope for band 4, that's it.

Signing off,

Nicole.

Auld Lang Syne

It’s the end of Semester 1 today. Had our final and it was not bad overall. Days have been pretty hectic and pathetic. Sick for weeks and I'm still coughing now. Damn, I need more vitamins.

He will be leaving for Taiwan on the 26th of Feb for 2 damn years. Yeah, to study for sure. It tortures not seeing him for 1 week but now, for goodness sake, TWO years! It will definitely cost him a lot if he calls me from Taiwan and the same goes to me. We can only Skype or MSN at night as we have classes in the morning.

He doesn't know how to cook. He doesn't know that it is a must to finish up the antibiotic medicine. He needs people to wake him up every morning. He doesn't know how to take care of himself. How can he manage to 'survive' there? How can I not worry?

What's worse? What if he has a new girlfriend there? What if he forgets me? What if he starts to ignore me as time pass by ? Oh my.

Ughh, why do I have to face all these?

I need strength, please.

Nicole Tee

Kenangan Terindah.

I didn't know how each of us work together so close, so close that there were even times when one yelled out loud, saying that she needed to pass motion and us (Didn't know why we, too, had the urge to poo), followed her to the loo and had our business started - we then pooped together.

It is not that we are friends since primary or secondary schools. We only started getting along with each other on the 8th of August and you can see it is only December now- not even half a year passed. I guess because we see each other like, everyday, every minute, every second ?

We complain. we tease, we use foul language and we never get bored of saying the same things again and again. We laugh and laugh and laugh even over little things like, 'she snored'. Aah.

I like how things are going on, how everything worked out so nice, so perfect that I know, after 5 and a half year here, when everyone start leaving, back to where they supposed to be, I'll surely cry like a baby or maybe worse than a baby. I will definitely miss each of everyone of you, the moments that nothing can replace such beautiful memory.

Do you guys understand the kind of feeling I am having now ?

Nahh, you don't.

Till then.