Bonjour ~

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Dilemma.

I sat there wondering what should I do, if I should go over and ask her if she is okay. I can't just sit there, acting as if nothing really happened, as if I don't give a shit about her anymore but life taught me to be cruel. Cruel to protect myself from being hurt, again. I don't want the same damn thing to repeat again. I don't want  to be treated the same freaking way again - when I did nothing wrong.

I'd rather not care, I told myself.

She cried and I did nothing. People were gathering around her and the sound of her crying can be heard. I stood up, not towards her but further away. I went to the cafe instead. I didn't know what to do and I couldn't stand the sorrow in her. I chose to walk away, far from that place.

I learn from the past. I learn from mistakes. I am not going to be that soft - hearted for the second time. Never.

In life, the only way to protect yourself is to be cruel. I believe.

Signing off.

Flashback

Thousands and millions of people know how depressing missing someone is but have you ever miss a pet so freaking bad like how you do to humans? 

I always wanted a puppy, a poodle but never will I get because my mum doesn't like pets. :/












I miss this silly little girl. Staring at her pictures like there's no tomorrow. 


Citt Citt.

Aloha.

Pok Nik and I came across with this topic. Only to realize that I love guys who have sense of humour.

A random post from me.
Signing off.

Nicole.

Brain damage

Travelled all the way back to Seremban to have dinner with the family. It was my grandparents' 60th anniversary. I was glad to see everyone again especially Kent, one of my long lost cousins who works at Singapore.

Food was awesome I can say. The only regret was I can't eat chicken. Damn.

I can't describe how I feel right now- too tired to even think of anything. I burnt the midnight oil the day before and I only slept like two hours. I was considered lucky because some of my friends didn't get to sleep at all. Hah. Pathetic.

I believe there will be people talking or well, gossiping what happened to us two. I have nothing to say about that but mind you, I am not the type who abandon friendships. Unless, you started ignoring me or you betray me. Perhaps you might be wondering the hell you did but hey, you should know more than me. Don't treat me like a trash. Coming to me when you have problems and ditching me away when you are done or maybe, not in the mood.

I always believe voicing out is the best choice and I still think it is. So here, everyone is not perfect and you can't just claim that she irritates or annoys you just because of her personality. You don't like it, you start ditching her and this is so damn wrong. Bear it in your mind that if everyone does the same thing as you do, you will be soon alone again because others might not like your personality too. As I mentioned earlier, nobody is perfect.

Aah, life.

Signing off.

Miss Universe Next Door

Stephanie is the BEST.. I've never met a girl like her. She is like an angel to me.
Signed and sealed with love,
Su Poh Poh ( The Pooh Bear )

Yo

Bonjour ~

Life has been pretty hectic with loads of assignments to be completed, not to mention, presentations and group tasks too.

I can handle these, I told myself. I am a super girl. Nothing can ruin me, nothing can ruin my mood- not until one of my lecturers kept asking for my assignments every single f*king time she sees me. Damn. To be frank, I hate it when people keep repeating the same thing. It's not that I am not going to hand in or whatsoever but hello, I have other subjects too. I have other assignments too. I need to hand them through the LMS before the time is up. I'm not saying yours is not important, but pretty please, be considerate and rational.

Thanks for making me sound like a grandma. Peeps, I don't mean to nag and I am not those long winded type but sometimes, things go out of control. Heh.

College banned facebook again. I am starting to hate college too.

Life sucks.

Circumstance

Have you guys been wondering where have I been for the past few months?

I was pretty lazy updating my blog and yours truly was admitted to the hospital for a month, missing college for six weeks. I'm actually still on medical leave till the eleventh of October but thinking of the assignments, I couldn't just sit back and relax.

I started college last Monday and as expected, loads of assignments awaiting me. To make my life even merrier, I have to face the two faced people in my college. I am now confused and irritated by how people change so easily, anytime and anywhere they want. Shit man.

One more, humans nowadays really need to be a little more considerate. Not much, only a little more, please. I understand how everyone wants to go back hostel so desperately everyday but hey, don't push. Especially when I'm in front of you people. My last operation was on the 13th and it's not even a month yet. Are you guys going to take the responsibility if anything happens to me?

Aah, pathetic, hectic life.

Till then.

The five of us.

Aloha.

It's the first week of semester 3. Pray hard that everything goes as I want. (: First good news, the college finally cancel the food package. I can now save more of my allowance and get a new smart phone. Yeehaa.

Thank god everything returns to how it was before. It feels really good that we can now have fun with each other and talk craps with each other. At least there is no gap between us, or maybe still a little.

One more, I will never ever going to give a shit about you anymore. What am I to you? Coming to me only when you are left aside or when your friends are not around? Only talk to me when you are lonely or left out? So, I am your back up plan? Plan B? Get a life man. I have never met someone like you before-selfish, silly and retarded. Shit you.

Aah, don't ruin my mood.

Love,
Nicole.

Have you ever thought of breaking down?

3 down, 2 more to go.

Currently having my final examinations now and yours truly is sick and well, perhaps getting better because I can even play Tetris. The day after tomorrow will be the start of our semester break - for two weeks. So, call me, date me. (:

I once said I don't believe in promises and forever, which I failed to think and act what I said. I committed, sacrificed and buckets of tears were wasted for love, for you. I believed you and you lied. I chose to believe again and you lied, again. This continued for the whole 670 days we were together. If the word 'sorry' really matter and mean to you, I wonder. It seems that what I received most were lies and disappointments. I'm so frustrated and pissed with all those promises you once said. 'Forever' and 'future' were what I see in us which now don't mean a thing to me anymore.

And no, you don't have to feel sorry.
You gave me experience. You taught me what a girlfriend should do and care. Most importantly, you make me realize how important family is. You make me love my mum more than anything else in this big damn world. I sincerely, thank you.

You were someone I once love the most.
Unfortunately, nothing lasts forever.

Love,
Nicole.

If and only if.

Where's the funny, caring and loving you ?

Nobody else.

Hey peeps,

I created a new blog. Not because I hate my current blog or I want another new blog. It's one of my assignments. Pretty interesting and fun project but I really suck in blogging especially with this new way and 'technique' to blog. I am not that smart geek who knows everything. Well, to be frank, I don't even know how to download songs from the net. You guys must be wondering where the hell I get all my songs, right? Aah, sister. Pendrive-copy-paste. 

I wonder if I have ruined my image. A few seconds ago. 

Whatever. Life moves on.

If time could ever turn back, I wish nothing of these will ever happen. Life now is so complicated with so many two-faced people. They were like so good to you and the very next minute, the don't even bother to say a word to you. We used to be so close. So close that I thought nothing could ever tear us apart. And hey, I am not saying my ex because he is no longer my ex anymore. If you get what I mean. 

Sometimes, love fools us. Agree not?

Signing off,

Nicole

Life.

Aloha.

So I abandoned my blog. Again.

Well,

I hate it when people acted as if everything seem to mean nothing to them anymore. In just a short time, everything changed drastically. There's no point giving empty promises when you don't even mean it. Save it. I pity your saliva.

Worse, college life.

I don't get it when people still act and behave as if they are still a primary school student. Please, we are 19.

Aah, life.

People change, things change, life change.

One more,

we officially broke up.

You'll miss me.

Signing off.

Love Story

Hey.

So, I've heard lots of love stories and I actually pitied some of them. You know, some couples are meant for each other but life is unfair, always unfair. They used to spend so much time together, they captured tons of beautiful, I mean it, really beautiful pictures and they were so sweet but why ?

Why do they have to end up like that? I can see they still love each other but why things always end up like this? Where's the '.. and they live happily ever after' story ?

Aah, fate, I guess.

Oh, one more.

Happy Birthday Mum !!

<3

Till then.

Romeo.

Aloha.

He went Taiwan last three days. The feeling of missing someone is unbearable and all I can do is to wait for time to pass.

So, I had my MUET speaking test and it was 'awesome'. I was so nervous that I can feel my legs shaking under the table. I can say that I was really 'lucky' as the chief came to see how we (my group) performed. Damn. Why can't she come later ? Thank god the question I got was easy.

I hate how we are treated here, as if we are still in primary school. The food was terrible. One word to describe, sucks.

Get a life, please.

I miss my baby boy.

Love,

Nicole.

Valentino.

I know I have been pretty lazy updating my blog. I said I will but yeah, I failed to do so. Lots of things happened in these few months but whatever, forget the past. Heh.

Valentine's Day was not bad after all. We had dinner at Tokio Cafe and food was scrumptious. Chronicle for movie and the best part was having him with me.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with his face in this picture. =)

Speaking test for MUET is around the corner and I bet you don't know how nervous I am. I only hope for band 4, that's it.

Signing off,

Nicole.